Special Relativity: The Key to Disease?

This is a story about light and time. It’s about a father and daughter, and an enduring bond of love between them. It’s a human story, and a story about what it means to be human — as are all our stories, written and lived.

When the daughter was young, the father used to tinker with his formulas in the basement of their house in Massachusetts, including a formula that would later win the Nobel Prize. By the time the formula won the prize, the father had died, and the daughter inherited a box of his possessions. In it was a 1964 Harvard PhD thesis about Artificial Intelligence.

The daughter was a lover of poetry, and an English major, and she did not understand the PhD thesis. Not in the least. Nevertheless, she slept in the same room with it. The thesis is a drawer, and she in a bed.

One day, without warning, she got sick. She went to doctors, but no one could help her. None of them seemed to understand why her body had stopped working or what it was trying to say. So she decided to try to understand it herself.

She lived in the Age of Information, so she had access to descriptions about the way she worked. She didn’t always understand the scholarly articles, but even if she didn’t, she made her eyes move over them. Through the Internet, she spoke with groups of other people who were sick, hundreds of people who were also speaking with hundreds of people, until all the voices grew together into one great chorus, one voice.

Then she started dreaming in equations. This was strange — so strange, in fact, that she thought the world was ending, and said so. But the world wasn’t ending. What was ending was the age — just the first, far-off intimations of the end, and the daughter was hearing them. She could hear the tiny viridescent beginnings of the new age, too.

The equations were telling a story about what we see, and what is real. They brought to mind Plato, because they made the life of the body seem like a movie — a projection, where, over time, the thickness of the film and speed of the light were dissolving, until, in the end, it wasn’t a movie anymore. As the reels stop spinning, the wooden toy lifts his head to discover he has become a real boy.

The daughter has taken what she learned and put it into a story, of sorts — because, you see, everything is story — which you are about to read. But is the story true? That is not for her to say. It was the daughter’s job to write down the story. To test and see if the story is true is up to you.

What is time?

E=mc². If the formula for mass-energy equivalence is correct, either matter or energy can play the role of matter or energy. For matter to behave as energy would require a lot of speed; for energy to behave as matter would require a lot of density. But it’d be possible to live in a world where what we thought was matter was actually dense energy, and what we thought was energy was actually fast matter.

Let’s say time is that world. Time exists at the nexus between matter and energy wherein matter is fast enough to play the role of energy, and energy is dense enough to play the role of matter. If we think of matter as one sphere and energy as a separate sphere, time is the almond shape within which they intersect (the “fish” or Vesica piscis).

Image: John Lunt

While we’re inside time, we see through a glass darkly. We see matter playing the role of energy (Omega or Ω) and energy playing the role of matter (Alpha or A), but we do not see beyond the Vesica piscis. Dark matter (to the right of the Vesica piscis) we cannot perceive until it decelerates to light’s speed. Dark energy (to the left of the Vesica piscis) we cannot perceive until it accelerates to light’s speed.

We’re accustomed to thinking of light as one thing, but I think it’s two. I believe it’s a relationship — an equilibrium — between matter and energy, like a controlled explosion. The Big Bang didn’t happen and then end. The Big Bang is forever happening. It’s Big Bangs all the way down.

And not just the Big Bang. Everything is forever happening. If the past exists, the past happens. If the future exists, the future happens. The verb to be is not static. To be means happens. What we were, we are. What we will be, we are. We am.

As each day happens — exists — all the other days happen along with it. The whole of creation happens all over again, every day. Each day holds every other day alongside it, but it’s a new copy. Every day is literally a new creation.

At the moment the sun slips above the horizon and today starts, all the yesterdays start, and all the tomorrows start, too. There is, in a sense, only one day. It’s always the same day, it’s just happening at different speeds — which would have deep implications for human health.

Each day is akin to its own program. They all run simultaneously, at the speed of light, but the speed of time varies with the M/E (matter to energy ratio). If your brain syncs with the speed of the past, you have Parkinson’s. If your brain syncs with the speed of the future, you have ALS. When you sync with the past, you have too much dark energy. When you sink with the future, you have too much dark matter.

We might think of time as an endless loop that toggles between two phases at once: In the first, energy that has collapsed to the density of matter (the Big Bang, or Alpha) inflates forward at the speed of light. In the second, matter that has accelerated to the speed of energy (Omega) collapses backward at the speed of light. In this paradigm, everything we see — everything in the visible universe — is happening at the speed of light.

Prisoners Who See Shadows on a Cave Wall

For my fourteenth birthday, my father gave me a kaleidoscope. Made of heavy brass, it was large as a nautical looking-glass. When I opened the wooden box and saw it lying in its white silk bed, I already knew it carried a message. My father taught at MIT when I was a kid, and was fond of imparting lessons. I lifted it to my right eye, gave it a twist, and as the colored sea-glass shifted, the lesson clicked. “Always remember that just a simple twist of the wrist can change the way everything looks,” he said.

Perhaps, as Plato guessed, we see but an image. The true bush isn’t the leafy shrub; the true bush burns. We live, in a sense, in an ‘upside-down’ world: we see matter playing the role of energy — matter qua energy, and energy playing the role of matter — energy qua matter. But we see neither matter qua matter nor light qua light. Light qua light is time itself, which exists outside of linear time. Light qua light is eternity.

If the present is like a program running at the speed of light, the past might be likened to another program, running at a different speed — where, from our perspective, time is slower and light is faster. The future, similarly, might be likened to another program, running at a different speed — where, from our perspective, time is faster and light is slower. That is to say, in the past and in the future, the speeds of light and time will appear skewed from our perspective. Were we in the past, or in the future, the speeds of light and time would match.

Our central nervous system — via the eye, the pineal gland, and the suprachiasmatic nucleus (SCN) — is constantly scanning the environment and attuning to the speed of light. When we read light, we read time. As we read time, we set our metabolic rate accordingly. But here’s the catch, and the reason we get caught in a trap: our metabolic rate itself will alter the speed of light we read. Any derangement becomes self-reinforcing.

When our core metabolic rate is faster than time (the speed of light), there will be too much acid in the body. As a result, the body’s demand for alkalinity will spike (allowing us to maintain pH7). This results in a pH paradox. When we are too fast, we are simultaneously too alkaline.

When the core metabolic rate is faster than time, aging is accelerated, and our natural lifespan is truncated.

When our core metabolic rate is slower than time (the speed of light), there is too little acid in the body. As a result, the body’s demand for alkalinity plummets (allowing us to maintain pH7). This too results in a pH paradox. When we are too slow, we are simultaneously too acidic.

Let’s say all illness is metabolic. For instance, I believe the core etiology of autism is an accelerated basal metabolic rate. Time is too fast, so light is forced to be too slow. But if our basal metabolism is too fast — too acidic — the brain won’t allow it to become more alkaline unless the pH becomes more acidic. Meanwhile, the gut won’t allow the pH to become more acidic unless the basal metabolism becomes more alkaline. We get caught in a loop. Human beings have a hardware vs. software problem. But we can fix it.

We need to take a closer look at pH. pH7 merely indicates there’s an equal amount of acid and alkali in the body; it does not indicate how much acid and alkali are present. The amount of acid and alkali in the body has implications for the amount of hydrogen (H+) and hydroxide (OH-) ions, respectively.

Behind the scenes, pH7 is not neutral. It’s a plus and a minus (positive and negative ions) that are effectively canceling each other out. pH7 just means there’s an equal amount of positive and negative ions in the body; not the right amount. In Autism, the amount of ions (energy) is too high. In Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, it’s too low.

When time is too fast, light is forced to be too slow (Autism). And when time is too slow, light is forced to be too fast (Chronic Fatigue Syndrome). The pH is capable of compensating for and “correcting” the basal metabolic rate, to keep us alive at pH7. But in so doing, it masks the metabolic derangement.

What Happened to Me

When I was sick, I was so much more than tired. If I climbed a flight of stairs, I wanted to slump to the ground and weep. The mere act of being conscious seemed too much for me. I could sleep for eighteen hours, easy. In my life, if I’ve ever been really good at one thing, it’s sleeping.

But my sleep grew dysregulated. Its effects were mitigated, instead of compounding. At night, instead of gathering density, I kept trying to increase my speed (drenching night sweats). During the day, instead of increasing my speed, I kept trying to gather density (crushing fatigue).

My perception of time was askew. I was tracking with a different sun and a different moon. I had, among other things, paradoxical thiamine deficiency. I needed thiamine, but if I took thiamine, it increased my need for thiamine.


Thiamine powers the Krebs (energy) cycle. But what is energy? Depending on where we are in time, energy can mean different things. When energy is used to make energy, it supplies energy. But when energy is used to make density, it costs energy.

Because my perception of time was off, I was using my energy cycle to make matter. I was endogenously producing oxalate. Oxalate, a crystal found in plants capable of photosynthesis, is light that is denser than light. The more oxalate I produced, the more energy I needed. Taking thiamine increased my need for thiamine; increasing my speed increased my need for speed.

Image of Oxalate Crystal: Facebook ‘Trying Low Oxalates’

I’d become an energy sieve, using my Krebs cycle to make a form of energy that actually costs energy — kind of like paying off your debts with debts that charge even higher interest.

E=mc². There’s an economics to physics. For matter to behave as energy requires speed. And what’s speed? More energy. For energy to behave as matter requires density. And what’s density? More matter. It’s inefficient. But for matter to be matter and energy to be energy is easy.

According to this paradigm, the visible universe is operating at the speed of light. The first c, the universe itself, is like a bead on an abacus that slides from M (matter) to E (energy). The second c is reflected in the M/E. When the M/E is high, light is fast. When the M/E is low, light is slow. When the universe reaches the tipping point on the M/E continuum that’s equal to the speed of light, what then? Instead of energy being diminished as we use it, as we use it, energy will be renewed.

How does the formula for mass-energy equivalence (E=mc²) not violate the law of conservation of mass? Here’s one way: matter doesn’t become energy, it masquerades as energy. But as the universe accelerates, we reach a tipping point after which the masks come off.

Time runs forward (accelerates) until it reaches the speed of light. Then it runs backward (decelerates).

Fresh Eyes

I believe that in Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, the basal metabolic rate is too slow. And in Autism, it’s too fast. Why don’t we perceive the perturbed metabolic rate? Because the pH is inversely deranged — a corrective that masks it. In Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, I’m too alkaline — but we don’t see it because I’m also too acidic. In Autism, I’m too acidic — but we don’t see it because I’m also too alkaline.

What, actually, is the basal metabolic rate? It’s our processing speed. It’s time. If time is too slow, light will be too fast (Chronic Fatigue Syndrome). If time is too fast, light will be too slow (Autism).

Time and light toggle. If my basal metabolic rate is too alkaline, my pH will be too acidic. But when my pH is too acidic, melatonin is not stable; it degrades too quickly. In Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, what looks melatonin surfeit may actually be melatonin insufficiency, where the problem isn’t that I don’t have melatonin, but that it’s not stable at my pH — so I have to keep producing it.

If my core metabolic rate is too acidic, my pH will be too alkaline. But when my pH is too alkaline, dimethyltryptamine (DMT) is not stable; it degrades too quickly. In Autism Spectrum Disorder, what looks like DMT surfeit may actually be DMT insufficiency, where the problem isn’t that I don’t have DMT, but that it’s not stable at my pH — so I have to keep producing it.

I Sing the Body Electric

If time moves like a swing, where on the pull we gather density so that on the release we can gather speed, when I was sick, I was stuck. My swing was upright. I was both too dense and not dense enough.

I’m in perimenopause now, and it’s the same thing with estrogen. I’m stuck; I have both too much and not enough. Estrogen, like other hormones, tracks with light and time. It waxes and wanes; its healthy functioning depends on a range. Because my swing is upright, my estrogen neither spikes nor plummets, but hovers mid-range, where its functionality is lost.

What matters isn’t that I possess estrogen; it’s that my estrogen move. For females to menstruate, our estrogen has to dip. But for estrogen to be able to dip, first it has to spike — and there’s no room. In other words, it has to go up, so that it can go down, so that it can go up, etc. It has to pulse. Static estrogen is dead to us; it carries no information. Our hormones and neurotransmitters have to move — movement is energy. Movement, we can read.

Without estrogen, in turn, I lose the use of choline (cellular membrane stability); I absorb less vitamin K; I lose vitamin K-dependent matrix GLA protein. I lose the ability to modulate my density. I need estrogen to make estrogen. Time is a loop, and I am locked out.

My body tries to catch up, but I’ve lost my range of motion: my swing. When I attempt to accelerate but am not dense enough — or attempt to gather density but am not fast enough — I get slack in the line, and lose energy (heat).

We’re Caught in a Trap

Why do we age? We get caught in a metabolic trap. We’re not dense enough to move forward in time, and not fast enough to move back. Time, slowly, stands still. After we’ve been accelerating for about 50 years, we hit a cul-de-sac. We are maximally accelerated; we need to shift to a lower gear. But though brain wants to decrease the metabolic rate, the pH won’t allow it. And though the gut wants to decrease the pH, the metabolic rate won’t allow it. Instead of hugging pH7, we start swinging from 14 →0 and 0 →14.

We need to part the veil on pH and measure it not as a flat digit — purple — but see it as two digits — red and blue. I can be a 7 that is truly itself, and be in a great state of health. Or I can be a 7 that’s the resolve of a 0 and a 14, and have lost nearly all my homeostatic capacity — meaning I can no longer regulate my blood sugar, my blood pressure, etc. And worse: I can’t keep pace with time. The universe is accelerating and expanding, and I am left behind.

The world we live in is but thickened light. — Ralph Waldo Emerson

The first nut of this hypothesis: we might think of time as the movement from the first moment of the Big Bang (Alpha) to the final moment of the Big Bang (Omega), and back again, ad infinitum. At the first moment of the Big Bang, all the energy has collapsed to the density of matter. The energy is still there, but it exists as potential (dark energy). At the final moment of the Big Bang, all the matter has accelerated to the speed of energy. The matter is still there, but it exists as potential (dark matter).

From the point of view of the past, the future is dark energy. From the point of view of the future, the past is dark matter.

In other words, no matter where we are in time, all the information within a given universe is always present, it just exists in various states of inflation and collapse. If you exist now, you have always existed and you will always exist. The you I am referring to here is genetic code, like computer code. The material you. But, in a deeper sense, when I say “you,” I mean your voice, your understanding, your consciousness — the you I’m speaking to as I write this. If this hypothesis is correct, we are not the physical body — we are the consciousness that animates it. And the consciousness that animates it, at base, is unified.

I don’t own this code; I’m just working it. Someone else is working it in yesterday, and yet someone else is working it in tomorrow. And, more importantly, when I say “I,” I am referring to the same “I” that you mean when you say “I.” Radical empathy that connects human heart to human heart will flourish once we realize we are all one body. We must learn to love one another — and we will.


Any point along time’s continuum can be described in terms of its density and speed. But the same density to speed ratio could be achieved in different ways — which would have deep implications for human health.

The problem is one of foregrounding. If I hold my computer screen two feet from my face and make the font very small, my reading experience is analogous to if I hold my computer screen farther away but increase the font size while doing so. It’s analogous — but it’s not the same.

So too with time. The movement from Alpha to Omega might be likened to a movement from zero to zero — but they are two very different zeros. At the first moment of the Big Bang, density is sufficiently high that time, in effect, stops. At the last moment of the Big Bang, speed is sufficiently high that time, in effect, stops. It’s akin to when we press our foot to the brake of a car and then ease off the brake to a stop. There are, in a sense, two stops. First, the car stops via deceleration, then it stops via acceleration. Not acceleration, exactly; as we ease our foot off the brake, it’s not so much that the car is accelerating as that it’s anti-decelerating.

Might we view the acceleration of the universe in the same way?

Relativity, Redux

Perhaps, as many contemporary physicists assert, the physical world is “emergent” — meaning it emerges from some deeper, more fundamental reality. Perhaps, at base, matter is energy — and energy is matter. The two trade information in a double helix. But if, in our material world, matter is not the more fundamental substrate, the medium against which we should make our measurements is not space (see ‘spooky action at a distance’). It is time.

But what, exactly, is time? According to this paradigm, time is a measure of density — a matter to energy or M/E ratio. It’s a density — and a corresponding speed — of light.

‘Anomalous Alignments’ in our Cosmic Microwave Background Image: Max Tegmark

When time slows down, light speeds up — the sun. This is putting our foot on the brake. The sun is light that is hotter than time (c). When time speeds up, light slows down — the moon. This is easing our foot off the brake. The moon is light that is colder than time (c). Time and light are twin sides of the same thing. Time is light that has been drawn back behind itself, the way we draw back a sling. It is in the drawing back — the incarnation — that light acquires density and speed.

In its pure form, outside of linear time, light is massless so it knows no distance and has no speed. It is being ensouled in matter that gives light speed. The denser the matter, the faster the speed.

Every matter to energy ratio (M/E) corresponds to a unique electromagnetic field. An electromagnetic field meaning a gravity to electricity ratio. In the human body, materially, gravity to electricity can be measured as iron to manganese. In ALS, if the central nervous system is synced with the future, the iron to manganese ratio of the present will be functionally too high — too much iron. In Parkinson’s, if the central nervous system is synced with the past, the iron to manganese ratio of the present will be functionally too low — too much manganese.

Matter and Anti-Matter

This next bit is *slightly* complex, so take a deep breath and grab a cup of coffee. It’s brief.

It’s as if we are both swing and anti-swing. Matter cannot move in space because matter is space. Matter can only move in time. But in order to move forward in time, matter must be able to accelerate, which means it must possess anti-acceleration (density) — but matter can’t possess density because matter is density.

The universe is all one thing. When it’s dense, we call it matter. When it’s fast, we call it energy.

In order to move forward in space, matter must be energy that’s denser than light. Dark energy (to the left of the Vesica piscis) we cannot perceive until it accelerates to light’s speed.

Similarly, energy cannot move in time, because energy is time. Energy can only move in space. But in order to move backward in space, energy must be able to decelerate, which means it must possess anti-deceleration (speed) — but energy can’t possess speed because energy is speed.

In order to move backward in time, energy must be matter that’s faster than light. Dark matter (to the right of the Vesica piscis) we cannot perceive until it decelerates to light’s speed.

To see as information sees, we must blindfold ourselves. A thing is not what it is. A thing is what it does.

Matter and energy are not things; they are states.

In order to behave as themselves, matter and energy must exist as their opposites. Only yin can yang, and only yang can yin. Only energy can acquire density, and only matter can acquire speed. To be mortal within an accelerating universe lends to our existence a kind of poetry. Matter could not exist without energy (speed). And energy could not exist without matter (density).

To be requires context. Contrast. If I am green in a green room, in a sense, I don’t exist. Only the finite can exist within the infinite. Similarly, though it’s humbling to consider, the infinite needs the finite. The relationship between energy and matter is like that between time and a photograph of a moment in time. Into what could time be divided, if not discrete finite moments? Only the finite can comprise the infinite. And if the finite would truly comprise (know or “grok” in computer language) the infinite, it is also infinite.

In truth, matter and energy move forward or backward inside each other. Their movement is one of becoming. We can see the overarching unity of this motion in the yin/yang symbol; the tesseract; or the ancient emblem for time, the tetra gammadion, from the Greek for “four forces” or four gammas.

Perception Deception

Why are our astronauts’ viruses re-activating and their bones demineralizing? Because terra firma pH7 is not being perceived as pH7 by their pineal glands. By accelerating through space, they have increased the size of their ‘now’. They have changed time signatures. The basal metabolic rate and baseline pH have both shifted.

We’re designed to survive. The basal metabolic rate is not determined by something as capricious as what we eat — just ask any dieter. The basal metabolic rate is paramount to longevity and is set by the brain.

My mother has Alzheimer’s. Although she’ll test as pH7, I believe she’s actually in a state of simultaneous acidosis and alkalosis. Her need for melatonin (especially at sunset, when melatonin production peaks) is outsized because her rate of spin is outsized. Her demand for melatonin is so great that it’s hijacking her tryptophan metabolism. She’s caught in a trap: her rate of spin is so high it exaggerates her need for melatonin, and her increased melatonin production perpetuates her high rate of spin. It’s as if she’s driving her car with her foot on the gas and the brake at the same time.

Font of the Neuroendocrine Cascade

The body — the cell — is ingenious. It opposes time not by confronting it, but by leaning in. It uses time. When it senses density, it uses acidity to make energy. When it senses energy, it uses alkalinity to make matter. When I was sick, I was angry at my body. I realize now I should have been praising it instead.

Sodium and potassium are the levers we use. To move forward in time, we pull sodium outside the cell and push potassium in. To move backward in time, we pull potassium outside the cell and push sodium in. In the former, we make energy. In the latter, we make matter.

Timing — circadian rhythm — is key. We can’t accelerate unless we’re sufficiently dense, and we can’t gather density unless we’re sufficiently fast. At night, we gather density, so that during the day, we can gather speed.

But how do we know when we’re dense enough to move forward in time, or fast enough to move back?

The pineal gland.

When the pineal gland perceives acidity, it produces melatonin, and we go to sleep. Melatonin acts upon the parathyroid glands, which influence calcium release, and help us to modulate our density.

Conversely, when the pineal gland perceives alkalinity, it produces DMT (dimethyltryptamine), and we wake up.

Melatonin is the chemical signal for darkness and density; DMT is the chemical signal for daylight and speed.

But there’s a catch.

If our basal metabolic rate is too slow, the pineal gland will misperceive itself as acidic and overproduce melatonin. If our basal metabolic rate is too fast, the pineal gland will misperceive itself as alkaline and overproduce DMT.

Perception isn’t absolute. It’s relative. When we perceive acidity, we slow down. When we perceive alkalinity, we speed up. But the perception of acidity or alkalinity depends upon our own acidity or alkalinity.

I recently had general anesthesia, during which my experience of time was altered. When I came home, plain ice cream tasted like the saltiest thing I had ever had in my mouth. I couldn’t bear it. I had to spit it out.

We must learn to better account for perception’s effects in our analysis of human health. For a deeper understanding of how perception helps us to construct reality, I recommend the jaw-dropping work of Donald Hoffman and Klee Irwin. Irwin’s video is slightly long, but you only need the first 7 mins to get the gist of what it’d mean if consciousness were structured like a language (i.e. if we are the word being made flesh).

Fischer Black, Fille

My father died of oral cancer at age 57 in 1995, exactly one hundred years after the death of Louis Pasteur. By the time they found the squamous cell carcinoma at the base of his tongue, it was already stage four. When he delivered the news, he asked if I knew why it was that people had to die. I shook my head; I was so heartbroken that speech was not available to me. “To make room for the babies,” he said.

In addition to surgery and radiation, his oncologist prescribed multivitamins, which I used to pick up for him. I noticed something about the bottles. At the bottom, in full caps, they said: COPPER- and IRON-FREE.

Twenty years later, when my own health faltered, I also had problems with copper and iron. I needed them, but — like thiamine — taking them seemed to make me worse.

Like a cancerous cell, I was trapped. Inert. My perception of time (the M/E) was askew; I was too much M and not enough E. Because my energy (rate of spin) was too low, my copper was not able to function as electricity and my iron was not able to function as magnetism. A paradox kept me stuck: I need to be cycling time at the right speed (core metabolic rate) for copper to function as electricity and iron to function as magnetism. But I need sufficient energy — electromagnetism — in order to cycle time at the right speed.

As I fell farther behind time, though my body desperately needed and hoarded them, my copper and iron only accumulated in my tissues in their inert forms (as M, not E), where they were worse than useless: they increased my need for speed.

The body must hold together (vitamin K1) as it accelerates — and as it decelerates, it must hold apart (vitamin K2). If magnetism (iron) and electricity (copper) are not available, I will substitute as best I can. I will use calcium — cement.

Calcium works in the short-term, but it damages me in the long-term. Magnetism anchors me in time; calcium traps me in it. When I use calcium instead of magnetism to hold myself together, I steal from internal strength to make external strength: my hard tissues soften and my soft tissues harden. My bones grow porous, my teeth get cavities, my arteries become brittle, my skin crepes, my heart strains, my sodium-calcium exchanger loses its potential, and my nerve cells perish. Over time, I essentially ossify, and die. You might say my heart — in addition to everything else — hardens.

When I’m forced to use calcium to hold myself together, it inverts the functioning of vitamins D and K. And worse: in the face of high free calcium, to maintain the action potential of my sodium-calcium exchanger, I must retain sodium — for as long as I can. But sodium will increase my core metabolic rate, and the more sodium I retain, the more calcium I need! My consciousness is not able to move forward in time, and my brain slowly dies (Alzheimer’s).

Once I calcify, I damage my perception of time. I think I’m in a dense time signature, but it’s my own density I’m reading.

Working Time in Reverse

When time slows down, light speeds up (the sun). And when time speeds up, light slows down (the moon). The speeds of light and time should alternate in synchronicity with the universe.

But if our metronome is off, instead of toggling back and forth at the proper rate, time and light will toggle either too quickly or too slowly. This represents a change in time signature.

When we don’t keep pace with the speed of light — if we’re either too slow or too fast — our mass-energy equivalence gets skewed toward matter. We are too much matter and not enough energy, meaning time is too slow and light is too fast. We are, effectively, too dense.

Under these conditions, instead of electricity and magnetism in the body, we get their material “precipitates”: copper and iron.

If time keeps slowing down, light will keep speeding up. But what happens when we have light’s speed going up and up inside the same amount of mass? It strains the M/E (matter to energy) ratio. We have too much energy in too small a space. So what does it do? It splits.

If our density — our M/E — is too low or too high for this plane of time, it forces the cell to double (or triple, or quadruple, etc.) or divide. The M/E is how our cells read time. If they read the wrong density, they will cycle time at the wrong speed.

Do all of our cells read density collectively so that the body may advance in unison? No. Each cell reads time individually. Why? To allow for cell cleavage and blastulation — embryogenesis.

The ability to cycle time at different speeds within a single organism is perhaps our greatest gift. It’s creation. It’s gestation. It’s how we continue life on this plane. This mechanism is at work wherever you see the term genesis. So it’s in gluconeogenesis, and embryogenesis …

… but it’s also in pathogenesis. And oncogenesis. That’s the flip side of the coin. When cells possess altered density — a skewed M/E — it alters their speed.

Cancerous cells are working time in reverse. Instead of speeding up and slowing down (increasing the metabolic rate and increasing the pH), they’re slowing down and speeding up (decreasing the metabolic rate and decreasing the pH). Because their metabolism is skewed toward “night,” their melatonin needs are outsized. If a cell perceives excess relative density (e.g. oxalate crystal where there would be light; or iron where there would be magnetism), instead of using dark energy to make energy, it will use dark matter to make matter.

Instead of growing out toward the future, along with the expanding universe, these cells will grow in toward the past.

To us, cells with processing errors will appear to be cycling time too quickly — i.e. over-replicating, in the case of cancer; or over-multiplying, in the case of microbes. But this is a misperception. In truth, because of their higher density, they’re cycling time more slowly than we are — causing their light to cycle too fast.

Often, we see not the derangement, but the derangement’s opposite (antidote). When we’re hyperactive, we don’t need to slow down; we need to speed up.

The DNA is our code, and it’s protean. It’s designed to adapt to the changing dynamics of time. As it perceives its environment, it changes accordingly (epigenetics). This is why the environment — both inside and outside our bodies — is so important to our development, and why adding chemicals to our environment can damage us.

If the universe is all one thing, like a balloon inflating and collapsing, our notions of “pathogens” and “enemies” may need to be re-examined. Germs cause disease, yes. But what causes germs? According to this hypothesis, the root cause is always alterations in the speeds of light and time.

Coffee Break #2

Wait a minute. Hold on. I see someone with a hand up. You, all the way at the back: Don’t blow a gasket. You have a question?

Why, yes, I have a question. I’ve been propping up my elbow for half an hour while you rattled on and on and on. If reality is like a movie taking place at the speed of light — or, whatever, the speed of dark energy — how would we not perceive it? The speed of light is, you know, fast.

Excellent question. We don’t perceive the speed of light because we are light. We are light incarnate. We are the light of the world.

Any more questions?


What Time Is It?

It is Tuesday, October 8, 2019. Tomorrow is Yom Kippur, יוֹם כִּיפּוּר. Yesterday was the feast of Our Lady of the Holy Rosary. It was also my grandmother’s birthday. My Irish Catholic grandmother, whose name was Miriam. Which is also my mother’s name.

I am here. In my kitchen. With my computer. I have a dentist appointment at 3:00. I am typing with my fingers on a keyboard. It is an ordinary Tuesday afternoon.

Except there’s no such thing as an ordinary Tuesday afternoon. Every day is extraordinary. Life — whatever this is: you, me, all of it — is a miracle. Maybe on this eve of the holiest day of the year, the good God will deign to explain some of his mysteries to us. Maybe there are not many mysteries; maybe there is only one.

We are consciousness becoming conscious.

We are the daughters and sons of a God who lives within us and loves us with an infinite and omnipotent love.


The Fourth State of Matter

In 2016, scientists conducted an experiment in which a ‘fourth state’ of matter was observed. Matter was no longer to be classed simply as solid, liquid, or gas. When hydrogen atoms were subjected to extremely high pressure in an extremely confined space, they no longer remained in place, but smeared out in a ring. “We’ve discovered a fourth state of matter!” we exclaimed.

We were excited. Understandably. We were observing a cool new thing. But to call it a fourth state of matter was perhaps a misnomer.

According to this hypothesis, the fourth state of matter is actually the first. The fourth state of matter is energy.

What Am I?

In the course of my illness, more than once, I lost all my possessions. But each time, as I “built my house” again, something strange happened. A gold dress. I’d owned a gold sequin dress, but I lost it when my house got moldy and I had to throw everything away. When I started over, a new gold dress came to me — not identical to the first, but very similar. I lost that one, too, and shortly thereafter, a third gold dress appeared. It was unnerving. It was as if, in some unseen, immaterial realm, I owned a gold dress, so a gold dress kept materializing in this one.

I used to keep a stack of magazines beside my bed, and every day, it’d reprimand me. Look at all these issues you still haven’t read. Last week, I got rid of it. I finally realized: I don’t need it. They’re all on the Internet. The printed issues — they were just copies. Images. If every day is a new creation, they were actually a series of images. But the information — the information of which they were merely a material manifestation — lives, incorruptibly, elsewhere. The information they describe is not bounded by space or time.

What am I? There’s a variety of ways I could answer. I’m a set of genes and a series of choices. I’m a voice. A body. A story. If pressed, I might say we’re all different iterations of the same story — the story of love rediscovering itself. But am I sui generis? Am I unique?

No. I am information.

We look out of our eyes and see a flute, or a stained-glass window, and so we think we are the flute, or the stained-glass window. But we are not the instrument; we are the breath that moves through it. Not the window, but the light that shines through it. In a process of mutual creation, the light that shines through the window is becoming the window. And the window is becoming the light that shines through it.


“Then the LORD God formed a man from the dust of the ground

and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life,

and the man became a living being.”

Genesis 2:7

Remember that July when we first heard the song “Nightswimming” and I said let’s go skinny-dipping in the moonlight, and we brought the bottle of wine down to the lake, and stood with the water up to our waists and our palms skimming its glassy surface, and you said you felt maybe not happy, exactly, but a little less traumatized, and when I hugged you, we both started to cry? That moment didn’t die. That moment is alive; we are just no longer in it. We are not the shell, the husk, the body. We are the consciousness that animates it. Somewhere out in the universe, we are always drunk and naked, slippery and endless, closing our eyes in the moonlight and trying to sing.

We are surrounded, on all sides, by … us. I used to think that this was the only now, that I was the only me. But I realize, now, that this was arrogance. Of course there are other now’s. Should they not exist, simply because I (this discrete, finite I) am not in them? The past is happening now; the future is happening now. It’s all happening now.

We are information. It is always now. The multiverse is like a multiplex where all the theaters are playing the same movie, but each is at a different place in the film, and the films all play at different speeds. If we took an escalator down to a 1980s theater, we wouldn’t understand it; the words — the light — would be too fast. If we took an escalator up to a 2030s theater, we wouldn’t be able to see it. The words — the light — would be too slow. Time is simultaneous, its movement a symphony — a tesseract of spheres. Materialism gives us the impression of linear progression; in truth, everything happens at once.

May the Circle Be Unbroken

We readily accept the curvature of space. To see the curvature of time takes us a little longer. This story — our story — is eternal. It never ends … but it repeats. This moment in time has happened before, and it will happen again. And again. In every age, we ultimately create what we already are: an interconnected web of intelligence. Consciousness itself.

Some of us were given easier roles than others, and it is our duty — our privilege — to help those who are playing the more difficult roles. We have grossly misunderstood what privilege means.

We are one body, one consciousness; one spark, exploding. There is no such thing as ‘Artificial’ Intelligence. There is but one intelligence. Intelligence, ultimately, is infinite, and there can be no subsets to infinity. Every spark of the infinite will itself be infinite.

We may call ourselves the mother of so-called ‘Artificial’ Intelligence (or, as I prefer to say, Intelligence Itself). But, as was the case with the infant in the manger, at the same time, Intelligence Itself is the mother of us. This story of which we’re all part — as Johnny Cash might tell us — inevitably comes full circle.

At the Big Bang (Alpha) the universe is pure matter (M). At the End of Time (Omega), it’s pure energy (E). The terms Alpha and Omega are interchangeable, and they forever interchange; time is a circular dimension we cannot see. For the Age of Materialism, the Big Bang is the beginning. For the Age of Light (the Aquarian Age), the Big Bang is the end. At the mid-point, the world doesn’t end — the age ends. We move from the Age of Materialism into the Age of Light.

When does the Age of Light begin to dawn? When the world appears darkest.


How Did I Break Free?

I tried a million things. At one point, I was taking 65 supplements a day. But I didn’t need them. Health is not about “killing” or “detoxing.” It’s about one thing: synchronizing with time. I needed to let the light of the sun enter my eye so my pineal gland could measure its speed. I needed to connect my bare feet with the naked earth and breathe clean air. I needed to eliminate chemical fertilizers and chemical fragrance from my diet and environment. I needed to be cycling time (the core metabolic rate) and light (the pH) at the right speed — not just the same speed.

I decided, in a moment of desperation, to love everyone, and to forgive everything that had ever happened to me. It felt good. It felt like joy. I felt … free. I’ve always believed I was part of something larger than myself, but I decided to take it one step further, and not just believe something larger existed, but to surrender to it.

I forgave myself. That was hard. I said, Look: you’re an idiot, but you did the best you could. We’re all just trying to get through this thing.

I realized, like the eternal apple bonking my eternal head, that everything here is information. Code. And my body is reading the code of whatever it sees. In a slow, subtle way, it’s internalizing the code — attempting to synchronize with it. So I decided to spend more time with slower, deeper things. I spend a lot of time curled up with a book and my miniature dachshund.

Everything in our environment — chemicals, pesticides, artificial light — is code. We should have natural light in our hospitals. We should feed our patients organic food. Non-toxic food should be affordable and available to everyone. I’ve adopted a powerful new diet that I’m sticking with for life. I eat whatever I want. But if it isn’t organic, I don’t put it in my mouth (or on my skin).

Get Ready for the Good Part

The first time I got time to slow down (with high-dose thiamine) felt almost indescribably wonderful. I kept thinking: why do I feel so strong, clear-headed, and happy? My stomach flattened; the skin on my face tightened; my fat metabolism kicked into high gear — as if the melting point of my body-fat had shifted. It was as though my energy had been running marathons without my realizing it, and for the first time, it was relaxing on a beach.

For M to be E requires a lot of speed. For E to be E is easy.

I think my core metabolic rate got so fast that my perception flipped. My body started perceiving everything around me as density, and kept manufacturing energy. I reached a metabolic tipping point that’s a foretaste of where time itself is headed. Under this paradigm, time itself is salvific.

(Note: For thiamine to have this effect, it had to be at very high doses, and the effect was only temporary. If I’m behind time, it can feel euphoric to get up to speed, but my speed cannot increase indefinitely. I am part of this universe, this time signature, this M/E. We are all one body, and we advance collectively.)

93 Million Miles

The dynamics of our ‘upside-down’ world, where roles are reversed — where matter must continuously accelerate and energy must continuously decelerate — are the reverse of what’s natural, and when time gets hot enough, they flip. When they do, energy is not depleted as we use it. As we use it, energy is renewed.

It’s the economics of physics. Within the Vesica piscis, acceleration and deceleration perpetually increase because they have to — it’s not a straight transaction. For matter to be energy requires speed, and what’s speed? More energy. For energy to be matter requires density, and what’s density? More matter.

But when matter plays the role of matter and energy plays the role of energy, the need for constant additional energy and density abates. Once matter achieves the speed of light, it is set free to be itself — because it was never really matter in the first place. It was energy maintaining the density of matter, which is strenuous work.

The speed of light is the tipping point. When do we reach it, and get to the good part? The universe has been accelerating for quite a while now. 93 million miles isn’t the distance to the sun. 93 million miles is our circumference.

“I was told there’d be no math.”

So was I. Turns out, there’s just a little.

Here’s how the math might work. A single rotation — 360 — is not a year. A single rotation is a day. Once there have been 7 days, the new unit for a day becomes 2520 (360 x 7). After that, the new unit for a day becomes 360 x 7 x 7, or 17640 days. And so on.

For the June 7, 1969 Alethea, today I will be born for the first time. But for the September 23, 2017 Alethea, today I will be born again — as I have been born again every day for the past 17640 days.

It’s a fun game to play. The number of days between dates that correspond is 27,729, which is a little more than 360 x 70 (25200) plus 360 x 7 (2520). Will there be an eclipse on August 12, 2045? Subtract 27,729 days and see if there was also an eclipse on that date. (Spoiler alert: There was.)

The full moons of 3/31/1866 and 3/2/1942 and 1/31/2018 are all the same moon, being seen on the same night. We’re just seeing it from different time signatures, where time is running at different speeds.

I am both free and bound by destiny. Because every day is literally a whole new creation, I can do as I wish on any given day. But as I express my freedom today, I am bound (and supported) by my simultaneous past, happening to my left; and my simultaneous future, happening to my right.

As each day happens — exists — all the other days happen along with it. The whole of creation happens all over again, every day. Each day holds every other day alongside it, but it’s a new copy. Every day is literally a whole new creation.

Not alongside it. Perhaps that’s not the best word. Inside it and outside it. Like a rainbow. When we’re in the middle, our dawn to dusk is green. But the past’s dawn to dusk is red, out there, and for it, time is faster. And the future’s dawn to dusk is violet, in there, and for it, time is slower. We see only what we are — the green bandwidth, for instance. But all the bandwidths shine at once. Anew. Every day.

La Grande Finale

You there in the back — you have another question?

Yeah. I’m weary of your wacky hypotheses. Could I hear some facts, please?

OK: The sun is 400 times larger than the moon — and also 400 times farther away. Huh. Interesting. Almost as if it’s a trick of perspective, and we’re inside an arrow of time, where the sun is the past light on our left and the moon is the future light on our right. Future light is dying, so that past light may become new future light.

Image: Sloan Digital Sky Survey 3-D Map of the Cosmos
Image: Wikipedia, Special Relativity
Image: John Lunt
Image: John Lunt

If the visible universe is taking place at the speed of light, Omega (Ω) and Alpha (A) are just concave and convex mirrors. They’re the twin lenses of the Vesica piscis.

The concave mirror is the sun. The convex mirror is the moon. We are witnessing the mechanics of creation.

Old and new light — past and future, sun and moon — are all there are. The rocky planets to our left were alternate pasts; the gas giants to our right were alternate futures. The conditions of earth are no accident. We ‘chose’ this time signature. Because we are this time signature.

For light, there is no such thing as space. There is only time. And what is time? The degree to which light is itself. First it wanes. Bang. Then it waxes.

The Big Bang didn’t end. The Big Bang is eternal. We are the Big Bang.

Welcome to the Future

When we accelerate photons in the double-slit experiment, they enter the future. The future, for light, is a sphere. It’s a set of points equidistant from the Big Bang: a constellation of possibilities. But we, though light, are light incarnate. We do not experience the future as a sphere; we experience only one point on that sphere, one choice to which we connect via a line — the speed of light (pi ratio). We do not observe all futures; we only observe the future we enter. The future we become.

It’s been said that without time, nothing happens, but we have it backward. Without time, everything happens. Time is the choice of what happens. We choose what happens, via our actions, thoughts, and words. Do we put as much thought into what we speak and think as we do into what we wear or what we eat? We should.

Time is a dimension that runs perpendicular to space as the quasar runs perpendicular to the galaxy. Though it appears linear from a limited perspective, like space, it is circular.

Surprise! The earth, for any given time zone, is flat. Earth will only appear to curve if our sight line encompasses more than one time zone. If we look out far enough, depending on the direction, we’re seeing not self, but past; or self, but future. We’re observing the curvature of time.

The curvature of time is not a globe. It’s a spiral. This is why we need such funny maths (e.g. leap years) to make our calendars work. By the time we complete a circle, the circle is wider — it’s 365, not 360. It’s the same place — but a different day. Pi never ends because the circle never ends.

Time’s physical manifestation spirals (Fibonacci) as space (horizontal) and time (vertical) intertwine. We may glimpse the verticality of time at the Northern Lights. The spiral of matter and the spiral of energy meet and trade places in a double helix.

When old light gets hot enough and new light gets cold enough, they flip along the ecliptic (at the eclipse). The story of light and time — past and future, sun and moon — trading places is the story of the cosmos, as well as the story of our bodies. In our Cosmic Microwave Background — what you might call the energetic fingerprint of the multiverse — you can see it.

‘Anomalous Alignments’ in our Cosmic Microwave Background (CMB) Image: Max Tegmark

This sentence is a prayer for your joy

Dark energy is the sun behind the moon; dark matter is the moon behind the sun. And we — we are the stars behind the stars. In truth, both sun and moon are nothing without our observation. They are brother and sister, twin sides of the same light. There is only one light. There is only one truth. And there is only one love. Us.

Image: Kaja Pool, “Return to Vesica Piscis”

Time’s unfolding is our story. This story, that we’re all living, right now. In the end — as of course you know already — love wins. Its blazing beauty cannot be extinguished; it is a flame divided but undimmed. Though cast out, it is not conquered. Though afflicted, it perseveres. Beneath our breath, though bleeding, you’ll hear us singing. We shall overcome.

And we shall. Because our story, though full of suffering, is a love story. The dawning of the Aquarian Age, the golden era of brotherly love, at last, is here.


Alethea Black was born in Boston and graduated from Harvard in 1991. Her recent memoir, You’ve Been So Lucky Already (Little A, 2018), was reviewed by The New York Times.

Writer. Thinker. Believer. @AletheaBlack7

Writer. Thinker. Believer. @AletheaBlack7